Let me let you go
Lily stood and walked to the door. She looked back at her circle of friends and said, "I'm not drunk. Stop worrying about me.
"Sure. Whatever you say Lily." they said aloud, laughing.
"I'm not drunk. Hey Rayne, come with me to the bathroom will you?" she said as she opened the door. Rayne stood up and followed her. They walked quietly into the hall. A few steps away from the room, Lily's eyes started to water.
"Tell me Rayne, honestly, do you think I'm drunk?" she asked. Her eyes filling with tears.
"Yes Lily. You're drunk. And you shouldn't drink anymore. We never should have asked you to drink." Rayne answered, smiling at her friend as they walked.
"I really love him Rayne." Lily blurted out as she stopped walking. "I love him so much."
"I know." Rayne answered.
"I'm so tired. I don't want this anymore. This is why I don't like drinking. Everytime I drink, the feeling intensifies. It's like I can feel how much I love him even more when there's alcohol in me."
"Alcohol causes your inhibitions to go away. It makes you lose your control."
"I'm so tired. I just want to let him go."
"So why don't you?"
"How am I supposed to do that? How am I supposed to let him go when he's always there. I tried to stay away from him. I really did. But he wouldn't let me let him go. He came here. He went after me. Why does he keep doing this?"
"He doesn't know how yo feel. Why don't you just tell him you need space?"
"Am I supposed to just walk up to him and say 'I love you but I need space'?"
"Why not?"
"He has enough to deal with. I have enough to deal with. I don't want to make more problems for either of us."
"It's not making trouble. It's letting him know how you feel. It would be better if he knew. That way, you can have the space you need to let him go."
"I love him Rayne. I love him so much. I'd do anything for him."
"I know that."
"I want to let him go."
"Then let him go."
"HOW?!"
Rayne put her arms around her whispering words of comfort. She tried to calm Lily down. She wished she could take away Lily's pain. She wished she knew the answer to Lily's question. Not just so she can help Lily, but also so she can let go of the boy she loves as well.
How do you let go of the most important part of you?
"Sure. Whatever you say Lily." they said aloud, laughing.
"I'm not drunk. Hey Rayne, come with me to the bathroom will you?" she said as she opened the door. Rayne stood up and followed her. They walked quietly into the hall. A few steps away from the room, Lily's eyes started to water.
"Tell me Rayne, honestly, do you think I'm drunk?" she asked. Her eyes filling with tears.
"Yes Lily. You're drunk. And you shouldn't drink anymore. We never should have asked you to drink." Rayne answered, smiling at her friend as they walked.
"I really love him Rayne." Lily blurted out as she stopped walking. "I love him so much."
"I know." Rayne answered.
"I'm so tired. I don't want this anymore. This is why I don't like drinking. Everytime I drink, the feeling intensifies. It's like I can feel how much I love him even more when there's alcohol in me."
"Alcohol causes your inhibitions to go away. It makes you lose your control."
"I'm so tired. I just want to let him go."
"So why don't you?"
"How am I supposed to do that? How am I supposed to let him go when he's always there. I tried to stay away from him. I really did. But he wouldn't let me let him go. He came here. He went after me. Why does he keep doing this?"
"He doesn't know how yo feel. Why don't you just tell him you need space?"
"Am I supposed to just walk up to him and say 'I love you but I need space'?"
"Why not?"
"He has enough to deal with. I have enough to deal with. I don't want to make more problems for either of us."
"It's not making trouble. It's letting him know how you feel. It would be better if he knew. That way, you can have the space you need to let him go."
"I love him Rayne. I love him so much. I'd do anything for him."
"I know that."
"I want to let him go."
"Then let him go."
"HOW?!"
Rayne put her arms around her whispering words of comfort. She tried to calm Lily down. She wished she could take away Lily's pain. She wished she knew the answer to Lily's question. Not just so she can help Lily, but also so she can let go of the boy she loves as well.
How do you let go of the most important part of you?
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010.
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